We know that our hearts will be restless, until they rest in you...
Truth to tell, we do pant restlessly,
but not always for you.
Sometimes, instead for security
or sex and beer and sports,
or power and success,
or beauty and acceptance... not seeking you.
...We yearn for you in every season,
making you too easy, imagining you too difficult,
bewildered and unsure until you give yourself concretely to us,
as you have done and as you do. Amen."
-Brueggemann, "Not always for you"
Read that a couple days ago after a restless wrestling prayer day and almost cried.
Yes to yearning but not always for Him.
Yes to making him too easy and yes to imagining Him too difficult,
yes to bewildered and unsure,
and oh yes to how He gives Himself concretely to me, anyway.